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How amazing would going on that trip be if we actually could go? I feel like I've got a better sense of what I like vs what I don't, and I think (?) that I've finally realized enough as a human to form deeper engagement from the experience than I could when I was 11! And I don’t mean to underscore those experiences: Didn’t enjoy it any less then just... would have been able to enjoy it differently now? Maybe more thoroughly? Consciously? I can’t think of the right word